"There is nothing like a dream to create the future." -Victor Hugo

I have got to believe in myself, but everyday it feels more and more impossible. Confidence becomes farther and farther away from my grasp. I have to remember, as do we all, that "God's spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us," (Romans 8:26). That is the Word of God, and God is never wrong. Therefore, I should live as if He is always beside me, instead of behind me. If I do not trust in Him, my life will never be complete.

As a claim to my newfound trust in Jesus Christ, I am giving up meat and all drinks other than water and juice for lent. In the South, giving up sweet tea, will be a revolution. I might even be in the newspaper for that one. That was a joke, by the way... Anyways, I wanted to do something that would really be difficult, and I think this definitely will be. I'm going to dedicate myself to this, because the Lord gave his son for me. This is the least I can do, but I will do it wholeheartedly.

I am also trying to let go of any hateful or boorish comments towards another person, and become a beneficent citizen to this society. I know everyone has made fun of someone at least once in their life, but I no longer want to be a part of everyone. I understand the hurt that comes along with being made fun of, and the last thing I want to be is a hypocrite.

I miss you, but your attitude pushes me away. You tell me about all of your new best friends that you're getting extremely close to, and maybe I should be a good friend and be happy for you. I am, but I'm also a very jealous person. Envy is another emotion of mine that I really need to work on controlling. I'm not as strong as you think I am.