I'm leaving Indiana on Sunday, and I don't want to. I feel alive here. And even when I'm feeling down, while I'm here, hope never seems too far away. I just want to make sure that this feeling of being ready for the world gets packed up along with all of my other stuff in my suitcases. When I get back, I want to make the rest of this summer last. I want to be strong and do what's best. This life is my only chance to show what I'm here for. This life is only lived once, and I would never want to miss that. I'm getting off the ground and I'm living. I am alive.

You know what is truly beautiful? The flaws of people. Flaws are so beautiful to me, because they are what makes up true love. You know you truly love someone when you love everything about them, so without flaws there would be no absolute love. For instance, Jesus Christ. He's given up his life for us because of our sins . Sins are the ultimate flaws. My goal from now is to find the beauty in everything. I want to love like Jesus loved. I want to reach out for the truth, not run from it.

I am determined to make something out of today. I don't have to do anything extravagant, but I want to do something that makes me feel alive. God's creation is so beautiful. I want to embrace it. I can't embrace it while I'm stuck in this rut. Time to get up. Time to go out. Life is just outside these doors.

You telling me that you wish you could make me believe in myself meant more to me than you'll ever know. It's all I've ever wanted anyone to tell me. And out of all people, you said it. You telling me that you believe in me made me cry. I broke down in tears because for once in my life, I felt like I mattered ... but I can't have you. And it's killing me. I don't want you to know, but it's killing me.

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I miss you, more than I'll ever admit
But I'm scared to find out what that means for you and me
And subsequently, I can't speak
So I'll just sing about what lies ahead
It's a mystery

First, just nod your head
Let me swallow my regrets

Let's begin, let's dive in
I'll be here
All we've got is time on our hands
I'll be here
Would you stay with me?

I don't want to get too close
But I'm inching closer as we speak
Make room for me
And I'm scared to death to lose it all
But for once I don't mind feeling so weak
How could this be?

First, just nod your head
Let me swallow my regrets

Let's begin, let's dive in
I'll be here
All we've got is time on our hands
I'll be here
Would you stay with me?

The airwaves between you and I
They're filled with noise, but we don't make a sound
We'll live this down
And I don't want to leave this place
Because I am so lost, but you make me feel so found
Lord, I want to be found
And I know you've got her
But I'm losing sight of myself, because she's around
And I know I'm singing selfishly
So I'll just leave you two be
And I really do hope you're happy
But just in case you're not
I'll be here

First, just nod your head
Let me swallow my regrets

Let's begin, let's dive in
I'll be here
All we've got is time on our hands
I'll be here
Would you stay with me?

I need opinions. First, on the song itself. Second, in the line "but I'm scared to find out what that means for you and me".. I know the correct grammar would be "you and I" but the song just doesn't sound right if I say it that way. Does it sound dumb if I use "you and me" anyways? And lastly, I need a title for this song. Feedback would be much appreciated.

Cornerstone was beyond incredible. I can't even begin to describe how much I would love to be back there. That has by far been the best week of my summer, and it will be a very difficult feat to achieve if you try and beat it.

I saw Relient K, and they did so well. I was so close to Matthew Thiessen, I could have peed my pants. I am so blessed and grateful to have been able to see them live. They are such an inspiration to me. I wish I could tell Mr. Thiessen how unbelievably amazing he is, and how his work has such a huge effect on my life. At the end of their set, they performed "Deathbed" as their encore song. They had people run on stage with sparklers, and they distributed them into the crowd and placed them all over anything and everything on the stage. It was awesome.

Also, my friend Amanda and I were waiting in line at a coffee stand and guess who walks up beside of us? Underoath. No lie. I thought I was going to keel over. Aaron Gillespie and Spencer Chamberlain were RIGHT in front of me. Later, I was walking with my friends Juliann and Daniel and a golf cart zoomed by and yelled "Hey Emily!" Just take a wild guess at who was seated in that glorious golf cart... yep, UNDEROATH (minus Aaron Gillespie, which was disappointing.) But Spencer Chamberlain knows my name! He's probably forgotten it by now, but hey, it was still exciting. They're so talented. I can't stop listening to their newest album.

Another experience that I am so thankful for is something that came as quite a surprise. I was sitting at our campsite, playing guitar and singing, and these guys walk up. They sat there and listened to me, and we just talked for a while and such. Later, they tell me that they are in a band and they have a time slot tomorrow on one of the stages that they don't want to use. They ask me to take it, because they think I am talented. I have no confidence, so this was truly a gift from God. Unfortunately, the stage wasn't set up the next morning so I didn't get to perform, but it was so amazing just to have been asked.

I wish I were back at Cornerstone, but for now I'm in Indiana, trying to look for the silver lining.