Hiding away, losing the days

Letting your feelings build up inside you is no different than lying about them blatantly. It's okay to be afraid. It's okay to feel sad. It's okay to be jealous. those are all human, natural, realistic feelings. Do not be ashamed of them, for they make you real. We seem to forget that there is someone who cares, and his name is Jesus Christ. But that's not all we forget- we forget that he really, truly understands. I thought about this this morning on my way to school, while I was listening to a song called "Hide" by Joy Williams. In the song, it says "and if you feel like no one understands, come to the one who has scars on his hands". It hit me that I don't think I've ever truly grasped this concept of love and understanding that Jesus portrays. Jesus Christ died on the cross for each and every one of us. He was persecuted and tormented. He's been afraid, and He's felt sad. When we say that Jesus understands, we don't listen to our own voice. He has scars on His holy hands, and we act like He could never understand what we're going through? He died for millions and billions and trillions of people everywhere, and we act like He doesn't understand? I will admit that I acted this way, but today, I understand. I understand that He understands, and He is with me.

I also realized that it is okay to be happy. That is also a human feeling. I think that I feel that if I allow myself to be happy.. then I will become just like everyone else. That may have been my problem, all this time. The truth is, we can all have happiness. It is not unattainable, but it can be stolen from you. Happiness is that feeling you get when someone compliments you, or when someone makes you laugh. But joy- joy is always within you, even in your darkest times. If you have joy, then you still have that happiness inside of you even though you're hurting, or even though you're struggling. The only person that can give you pure joy is Jesus Christ.

I obviously don't have the skills to be a preacher.. but those were just some things that I was thinking about.