What do you say to taking chances?

Well, I say let's take 'em. I have to. I have to be strong now and move on, as bad as it hurts. I'm going to take a chance and let go of your hand. I was attached to your hip, and now I am a free person. I miss you, and I may always miss you, but I can't say I'll miss the person you are so rapidly becoming.


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Today was an endless bore. I finally fell asleep at 3 o'clock in the morning, after watching Pearl Harbor and crying for a good bit. I must say, Josh Hartnett is quite the hunk. When his character dies in the movie, I cry for two reasons- 1) It's obviously sad, and 2) That beautiful face does not deserve to die or even pretend to die.

Anyways, I woke up and everyone was gone. I was home alone and I couldn't get my papa's humongous tv to work. It does all these cool, techno things like let you watch two things at once, but I couldn't find a way to simply get the remote to switch it from playing a DVD to watching cable. I was frustrated, to say the least.

But, I've missed reading lately, so I picked up 'Silent to the Bone' by E.L. Konigsburg and finally finished it, for the second time. It's a great book, I recommend it. Now I've started on the #1 New York Time's Bestseller 'The Shack' by WM. Paul Young. My dad finished it yesterday, and he never reads- he loved it. If he took the time to finish it and he loved it, I'd say I'm going to definitely enjoy the book, as well.

My phone's been dead all day, and I haven't wanted to use it enough to walk upstairs and put it on the charger. Honestly, my cellphone is not that important to me, like every other girl my age claims it is to them. I mean, don't get me wrong, I use it an awful lot, you could say 22/7, but when I forget it at home (which happens a lot) or it dies and I'm somewhere without my charger, I don't freak out and I'm not normally too disappointed. Unless, I was texting someone special.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve and Juliann is planning on having a semi-big party. Well, for a town as small as Washington, it ought to be kind of big, I'd say. I'm excited about it and I'm excited about 2009. Whatever the future holds, I'm ready for it. I'm scared to let go of my past, and I miss my past, but I'm recognizing that I can do things on my own and make things happen for myself.

A new year, a new beginning.

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