I'm leaving Indiana on Sunday, and I don't want to. I feel alive here. And even when I'm feeling down, while I'm here, hope never seems too far away. I just want to make sure that this feeling of being ready for the world gets packed up along with all of my other stuff in my suitcases. When I get back, I want to make the rest of this summer last. I want to be strong and do what's best. This life is my only chance to show what I'm here for. This life is only lived once, and I would never want to miss that. I'm getting off the ground and I'm living. I am alive.

You know what is truly beautiful? The flaws of people. Flaws are so beautiful to me, because they are what makes up true love. You know you truly love someone when you love everything about them, so without flaws there would be no absolute love. For instance, Jesus Christ. He's given up his life for us because of our sins . Sins are the ultimate flaws. My goal from now is to find the beauty in everything. I want to love like Jesus loved. I want to reach out for the truth, not run from it.

I am determined to make something out of today. I don't have to do anything extravagant, but I want to do something that makes me feel alive. God's creation is so beautiful. I want to embrace it. I can't embrace it while I'm stuck in this rut. Time to get up. Time to go out. Life is just outside these doors.

You telling me that you wish you could make me believe in myself meant more to me than you'll ever know. It's all I've ever wanted anyone to tell me. And out of all people, you said it. You telling me that you believe in me made me cry. I broke down in tears because for once in my life, I felt like I mattered ... but I can't have you. And it's killing me. I don't want you to know, but it's killing me.

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